>> Monday, October 6, 2008
** I'm temporarily hosting this week as Susanne felt called to take a short break this week and next. **
This chapter hit me HARD!! Like, right between the eyes. Or in the gut, maybe.
I have struggled with my weight almost all of my adult life. I have had an awful time re-developing the self-discipline I exercised in spring and early summer. And most importantly, I DO feel that there is an area of my life that God has been asking me to give up so that He can give me more of Himself. But it isn't food.
When Ms. Weaver confesses to her readers that she used to be addicted to reading to the point of neglecting housework and cooking, I couldn't help but see the parallel between her compulsion to read and me not being able to tear myself away from my computer.
When she says Christian fiction was her way of escaping life and the mundaneness of homemaking and mothering, I can't pretend I'm not doing exactly the same thing every time I turn on my computer. You have no idea how many hours I waste here every single day. COMPLETELY wasted time.
The time it actually takes me to write a post, check emails and respond, if necessary, and read the blogs I'm following is a FRACTION of the time I actually spend here. But I'm constantly checking to see if someone's commented or sent me an email response to a comment I left on their blog, or texting my husband, or checking Facebook, or updating my Facebook status, or re-checking my blog for new comments, or.... I'm sure you're getting the idea. I'm positive I could easily contain my recreational computer use to within 1 hour.
But I don't.
And let me tell you, I have been feeling a prick of conscience in the seat of my pants for long enough that it's getting downright uncomfortable to sit here. I can't help but feel like me reading this chapter this week was God's way of clunking me on my thick, stubborn skull once again. You'd think all the computer problems I had this summer would have been enough for me to decide to change.
And it's not like I haven't vowed to change before. I've known for months already that this is a problem; an addiction. Last June, I publicly declared here on the ol' blawg, that I was going to make some changes ~ spend more time outside, with my girls, doing IMPORTANT things this summer. And you know what? I did. So that part was good enough, but it was not at the expense of my precious computer time. Rather other areas in my life, like proper meal-planning to spend less but eat better, practising hospitality and generosity, getting together with friends ~ and housework ~ suffered.
You know, that Mark Twain was a smart fellow. Not only a wonderfully humorous and entertaining author, but obviously a deep thinker as well. In reading through his most famous quotes, it's interesting to note that most, while amusing, show acute wisdom as well. I agree with Ms. Weaver after reading his suggestion of how to build character, that he was on to something. Twain states, "Do something every day that you don't want to do; this is the golden rule for acquiring the habit of doing your duty without pain."
What kind of a diet do you need to put your Flesh Woman on? What "something" will you do today that you don't really want to do? I know what mine will be.